One Last Thing Which Is The Most Important.....

OH and let's not forget to check this out!!! This is a piece that KSL did about another one of my personal hero's. Tanja has made the adaptive TRAILS program what it is today! She is the best when it comes to positive teaching and motivation. Best of all, she makes it FUN! Congrats Tanja!!! You deserve this award and recognition!!!!

*****hehehe plus. i am one of the "guinea pig" xcountry skiers in the background!!! LOL!!!

The Unfortunate Familiar Lesson

Wow. Today has been a doozy. A REAL doozy. And it was caused by my pure stupidity, selfishness, and being completely naive and caught up in something that I thought was "for funny". But you know...it was not "for funny" at all.

I had the realization, duh, that when we act in certain ways, that it does not only affect you, but that the rippling affects can be so damaging, more damaging then you'd ever dream. It was one of the worst weekends that I've had in a long time, but no complaining. I did it and asked for it all on my own, not thinking about the "after affects". The worst thing is that I KNOW HOW DAMAGING THESE RIPPLING AFFECTS CAN BE.

I have a vivid memory. Sitting on the beach with someone I once knew. Coaching and encouraging this person about owning up to the actions and choices that he was making in response to what someone had done to him. Telling him that he was in charge of his life and that it was time to stop the cycle. I remember thinking and feeling such hatred for this person, who had hurt him, that I did not know, just because they had been so selfish with their actions, not thinking of who all they would actually be and eventually be affecting.

And now I am one of them.

One of those selfish people who had lived in the moment, thinking only about me, me, me. It was a realization that I never want to experience again. Honestly. It was a grrrr day!

I had a visitor today. One that I did not expect to see. She came over having sensed the feeling that I needed to "spill my guts" to an extent. I broke down. Something that I rarely do. Just sharing some of my concerns, frustrations, and just how overwhelmed that I truly am.

But like I said, it's my own fault. I go down a path that begins to feel monotonous, I get impatient, I get annoyed, and the rebellious side of Katie comes out and I think screw it. I'm done with this and I'm going to go down my own path that I think will bring me some entertainment, some happiness, some relief, and some fun. Even though, in my gut, I know it won't.

And you know. It doesn't. It only brings me back to the beginning. Having to start the journey over again and having to re-evaluate who Katie is and who Katie wants to be. Not a fun place to be buuut it is what it is. Why do I continue to have these moments, these understandings over and over? I don't know. You'd think I'd learn.....

So thanks to "you know who you are". Your visit was much needed and very much appreciated. It will all work out how it is supposed to. When? Where? How? Who knows but I do have hope that it will.

One day and let's hope that it's sooner than later! LOL PLEASE!!!!! Because my endurance is beginning to wear thin!

ps....I LOVE this song and I just found it?!? Heck...where have I been???

One last thought...

Isn't it amazing how life can be going SO GREAT and then one day, it can be SO BAD???? hmmmmmm.......

....and most importantly....this event that i am referring to was not horrible, bad, or scandelous. it's what i do. i can be too hard on myself when things like this remind me of other situations. so no worries. hell is not calling....yet?!? jk

The past 24hrs have been.....what's the word.....not really sure if there is one word that can describe it?

So when I heard this song today on Pandora.com, it fit perfectly! Plus I LOVE this song anyway....

or there is this song that could unfortunately work too?!?

No worries though. It will all work itself out how is should.....

:)

In case you were wondering what it is I'm thinking about as I'm headed down the mountain, listen to this song and you'll understand just a little bit!?!

Oh, and yes. This is my favorite movie of all time in case you were wondering that too.

:)

Life Is Good...Life Is REALLY Good....

LOL...funny thing that we remembered...For you skiers. Do you remember when it was cool to have tons and tons of lift tickets on your jacket? That almost proved how serious you were and how good of a skier you were! LOL just startin my collection!?! hehehe
As I was singing along to the radio and about to head up the canyon, I looked out the window. The mountains, the snow, and the sun, all mixed in one, were gorgeous. I know my camera does not do it justice but it was amazing. Instantly, to my mind, came the thought...

"Life is good. Life is really good!"...

And you know what? It is. It really is!

There's Something In The Air.....!!!

I had to laugh at this yesterday. As some of you know, I was hiding out in my car listening to a song after running some errands. The kids went in to the house. As I was coming in, the back door was open, and I could hear them laughing hysterically. Oh no. What was I coming in to? Well...this is what I found. Carter pretending to be me. Honestly......
And I am happy to announce that my tulips have decided that enough is enough and it's time to come out. Good. Because I am welcoming Summer with OPEN arms!