Monday, June 28, 2010

The Best Birthday Party EVER x 3!!!

i could not resist pulling out some pics from back in the day. way too funny and classic.....

...to present day!
...19 yrs and counting! wow! have we known each other THAT long?!?




...being the only one who is eating dessert...lol

...the birthday cake


...the dance off



Saturday, June 26, 2010

"the reality and potential that you see within yourself is rarely the reality that others see within you. make sense? good. so don't ever give in and listen to those negative inner voices. it only brings you down. in fact you'd be blown away once you understood what people really think or see what your abilities truly are."
~~~author unknown

xoxoxoxo

xoxoxox to the sun and the pool and the tan but more importantly xoxoxoxo to my 2 little mingrats who i would die and be miserable without. i love you. forever. undying. no matter what.
dear basketball,
i miss the days when i played you in college....
dear wheelchair basketball,
i love that i get to play you! and i love how you still make me as competitive as ever!
ps. for the record. i still love ladders (suicides) and they are the best cardio death/love combo in the world! some things never change when it comes to the things required during practice. lol
:)

Friday, June 25, 2010

Fear and Excitement...What A RUSH!!!

yep. this is a sneak peak of what i will be experiencing in exactly one week. the fear of not knowing exactly what to expect has set in but the excitement of being able to serve the people of peru is what i really can't wait for! i know it sounds so cliche but this humanitarian "mini" mission is a dream come true. the ability to do something that i have always wanted to do. the joy that i will receive in the "helping" i will be doing, will never be replacable. i can't wait...but i'm nervous at the same time.
anyway...welcome to my humble abode and you won't hear any complaints from me. it's better than being cramped in the back of an extended cab truck like a was last weekend!?! (ragnar...lol)



stay tuned for the rest of the million pics that i will be taking but now you know what i'll be getting ready for next week. waaaaahoooooo!!!

Thursday, June 24, 2010

"nobody makes a greater mistake than he who did nothing because he could only do a little."

~~~edmund burke

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

"inch by inch, life's a cinch. yard by yard, life is hard"
"i often look back at the time, when two very different paths were opened to me. do any of us have free choice or are we driven by destiny? a longer path already mapped out. who can tell?"

~~~~unknown

the "Team Joggernauts"...




don't you just LOVE my water bottle? it's called "fred" water and yes. it looks exactly like a flask. lol. way too perfect....
lol. yes. the "m'arms"...
...and i could not have endured a race without seeing a few of my fellow girls...tara and sara!?! photo shoot anyone? lol and i don't want to hear any more comments bout this! the looks we were getting weeeere enough...!
our home for almost 29 hrs. yeah. lol....
(i had to add some pics to this post so keep reading...)
bryan reaching the summit and lets just say that i feel bad for the teams who did not get to experience this sight in the sunlight!? such the feeling of success....
yes. in my world a flashlight = a headlight. tim is the rigger-king!
jo...
wow. wow. what else can i say about our "ragnar wasatch back relay" experience?! it was awesome beyond awesome and one of the hardest things i've ever done. both a combination of mentally and physically. the best memories we made are the most random ones that only those who were lucky enough to be in our truck would get!?!
green goblin
doot...doot...doot...doot
scent of asia
morse code
the tone deaf band up at the lodge
duh. we're the team handi bitches!
the team tutu's
those are just a few of the classics that will forever stand out! and collin was correct. we'd know exactly what "the things" would be after...and we did!
those of us who were following along in the truck were able to see some gorgeous scenery. i have lived here for how long and i even found some of the "hidden secret parts" of utah along the course...
bryan...
sara...
it is hard to see and when i get the actual picture cd, i will post more pics but tim rigged me up the best "headlights" ever. i have never been scared when riding, but this time i found myself feeling really nervous. it was pitch black and the lamp on my helmet was not helping at all. my hero, tim, taped a flashlight on my leg and i was set. but even then it was hard to see the shoulder and the road. if it was steep, a puddle, a pot hole, anything that would mess me up. plus the cars heading towards you did not help. i can totally see how dangerous it can get!
jo and i getting ready for day 2!?! i was so surprised that i was so tired and so sore. my brain would tell my arm muscles to work, to get me up into the truck, but the muscles were giving me a hell no! i can do 26.2, one start and one finish, no problem. with the legs that i was doing, the minute i'd get going, it would be time to stop, get cozy in the truck again, and wait for my turn again. just a new "hand-cycling" experience that i needed to experience...but it was still frustrating. anyway. it's all about learning, right? :)
tim...
jo...
and yours truly...ALL DONE with my legs!!! and so GLAD to be done! hehehe
i am so excited that i finally got to do the ragnar. we had so much fun and our convo's were hilarious. i was just my random and weird self so that always makes for comedy!?! lol

of 658 open mixed teams, Team Joggernaut came in at 70. Great job guys! 188 miles in 28 hrs and 32 min with lots of crazy memories and laughter!!!

TEAM JOGGERNAUT or in my case TEAM ROLLERNAUT RULES!!!

Monday, June 21, 2010

"some blessings come soon, some come late, and some don't come until heaven; but for those who embrace the gospel of Christ or your God, they come."

***jeffrey r. holland
too funny. kindra came in the kitchen to get me. she had to show me what her new favorite song is. this is what she had playing on the tv. i totally laughed because wyclef was/is one of my favorites too! waaahooo!!! kindra has great taste!!! waaa haaa haaa my plan for her music love is finally coming together!!! ;)

Sunday, June 20, 2010

Wasatch Back continues to improve

Published: Sunday, June 20, 2010

When a car accident robbed Katie Terry of her ability to walk, she immediately started looking for ways to continue to maintain the active lifestyle she'd always enjoyed.

It took a few years, but eventually she discovered both her ability and her affection for hand cycling.

"Two years ago, I was the first hand-cycling participant in the St. George marathon," said the 33-year-old mother of two, who is now a member of the Utah Hand Cycle team. "It kind of lit a fire."

But even she admits participating in a race that tests her individual endurance and ability is totally different than participating in an event like the Ragnar Relay's Wasatch Back.

Which is where good friends come in. The relay is unique in that it brings the team concept to the sport of running, which is considered a solitary endeavor by most die-hards. And while runners have to navigate three different legs of the 188-mile course on their own, they don't do it without the support, encouragement and guidance of their 11 teammates.

Terry was a member of Jogger Nauts and was assigned to be runner No. 2, in part by race officials who had to make sure she didn't draw one of the legs that traversed mountain passes or trails.

She said her friends didn't hesitate to make accommodations for her hand cycle in the 24-hour race that packs six runners into two vans where they eat, sleep, sweat and laugh together while testing their physical limits.

"They're runners," she said. "My friends saw this as, 'You can totally do this.' "

She said she'd heard good things about the race and wanted to share in the unique experience. She also hopes others see her participation and find their own way to live an active lifestyle — without excuses.

She said after her accident, she witnessed the adjustment, including the doubt, that patients like herself had about their futures.

"No matter what the injury is, almost all of them feel like their life, like their active life is over," she said. "I've learned from other people and their experiences. It's good to pave the way for others, to show them what's possible. Life is not over. It's different. There are going to be new challenges."

The support of good friends and a great family, including her 9-year-old son and 7-year-old daughter (with whom she was pregnant when she was paralyzed from the waist down), make her want to push herself even more.

Terry was the only hand cyclist who participated this year, but she hopes to offer some suggestions to organizers about how to include others — including more handicapped accessible Port-a-Potties.

"I've done a number of marathons, and I've never been as sore and as exhausted as this," she said. "I think it was the stopping and starting, cramped in the car and not getting any sleep. But it was great. I had a lot of fun doing it. It was fun to see the reactions of people and fun to be the only hand cycle."

Not only that, she said, it lets others know it's an option.

"It is empowering to know with any trial, with any disability that you can do it," she said. "That if you don't, it's because you choose not to do it. Personally, it's empowering."

This year, the number of teams participating jumped from from about 650 to 1,050 — which meant nearly 13,000 runners. And despite a few glitches, the country’s largest relay was a success with organizers and runners.

"There are always improvement, but we're really happy with things," said co-founder Dan Hill. "It's like this year was the dream come true. Every other year was building to something. So much more we can do. It doesn't mean we're done. But this is the dream."

"It's just to be an example to my kids," she said. "I just want to be an example of hard work and dedication for my kids."

Nordic Track is the presenting sponsor of the race, and its corporate team turned in the fastest time on the 188-mile course that starts in Logan and ends in Park City. The Nordic Track Elite men's team finished the race in 18 hours and 26 minutes.

The country's largest relay was not without its glitches.

Many race participants complained about the parking congestion and difficulty in getting to the top of the Canyons Resort where the finish area was set up amid a carnival-like atmosphere that included free concerts and plenty of vendors.

"I think the finish was an improvement over last year, but we definitely have some things to work out," Hill said. For one, racers had to compete with the public for parking spots, and some missed the finish of their final runner.

"innocence is easily lost but never regained"

" when i felt that restless longing of youth, i found myself remembering of what my father had once told me. we are all a curious mixture of good and bad and our best hope is to live and to act so that we do not look back with regret."


***flora thompson's memoirs about life in the english countryside...lark rise to candleford

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

for the record...

for the record i did not make my son mow the lawn today. he WANTED to mow the lawn and did the back yard so fast and with a huge grin on his face. when the mower ran out of gas, i grabbed the gas can and began to fill up the tank. silly me, i spilled some. SILLY ME because that is what started the "freak out". my carter was convinced, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that because of this "small spilled gas spot", that once i started the mower again, it was going to blow us up! i tried so hard to convince him that this was not true (not true with how it had spilled...lol) but wow. dumb move. HUGE mistake. carter was screaming "no, no, no! i don't want to mow", making it seem like i was forcing him to perform slave labor acts, freaking out, and doing "spaz ma-taz" moves in .2 seconds. of course that was the exact moment that the neighbors drove by, and all i could do was smile and think in my mind "oh #($*&)@*"!!! i went in the house and he stayed out on the tramp. literally 5 minutes later he came in with another one of his huge carter smiles, said sorry, and asked to mow the front. honestly? honestly? lol wow.

what a great ending to an already emotionally draining day. we sent my youngest brother off today to serve an lds mission to peru for the next 2 years. i will miss him so much. i was not sure how my kids would handle losing their "big brother" so i made sure that we talked about the fact that this was HIS CHOICE. that he had had, like all do, the chance to not go but that this was what he wanted to do. it made them feel a little better but still the tears were flowing by all 3 of us.

it was another one of those happy-sad moments that i'd rather not go through but unfortunately, we must. booo! so yes, an emotionally draining day, full of highs and lows.

xoxo

Saturday, June 5, 2010

"Only you" by Sinéad O'connor

for the die-hard romantic in me....
you're the only wife i've got or ever will have
you are my whole existence
i will love you until my last breath


***prince albert to queen victoria
in 1840

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

i wish i knew....

yesterday afternoon, after a LONG and gloomy day, carter and i were in the front room just talking.

"mom? can i go outside and play with them?" as he longingly looked out the window.

there were a few of the neighbor boys riding bikes.

"no. just stay in here. it's too wet." i said just trying to be in control and somewhat selfish.

a voice in my head asked me why the hell not?! just let him go and you need to relax a bit.

let me explain. it's not that i don't want him to go and have fun, it's more that i don't want him to get his feelings hurt or be "the joke". i know how he can be. i know how he can be annoying with his repetitive questions. i've seen the looks and i understand where they are coming from. it can get frustrating. i saw the look on his face and i knew that he wanted to go outside so bad.

"sure carter. go out and have fun!" i said.

and off he went with a "bye mom".

i watched as he rode off and went over to the neighbors house and my heart realized that i need to let go. he's not a kid anymore. he can handle his own and so can those boys. but still it's not easy. i just want to keep him close and protect him...though it's just hurting him in the long end. i love him so much and as frustrated that i can get with him...i love him with all of my being. i know how mean kids can be and it scares me.

it's funny cause this issue is the only thing i'm freaking psychotically paranoid about. everything else i am so chill and calm. even when it's just me and kin, i am sooooo relaxed. it's hard to even understand myself why i'm like this with carter but i think it's cause i just don't understand. he is so different then i or my friends were growing up so i don't know the best way to "handle" it. buuut i do know that i need to just not be so worried bout it. it is what it is and if people don't understand then oh well, right?!? see? it's so "nervous'ing".....

anyway, carter will always be my little carter...my little bubby and i love him so much!

let me also add, that we have the best kids in our neighborhood! we are so lucky to have such great families around us. you know who you are so THANKS!

i love you carter james
xoxo

Thaaaats My Kindra...

somewhere in kindra's imagination came this idea. the creation of the rabbit hole. yes. a rabbit hole. when i asked her how she thought of this, she exhaled, smiled, and said "oh i don't know. i just did. when i dig new things come to my mind." lol...yeah...too funny!?!
it became the new obsession and it took up lots of her free time....

next came the fox hole. i know. horses? rabbits? fox?


she kept digging and digging until she could fit/hide in her fox hole. when i asked her who she was hiding from, again she exhaled, smiled, and said "i'm trying to hide from coyotes, hunters, and gun people." lol...yeah.
i'd have to say that this afternoon was pretty funny. we were out watching carter playing some ball when she disappeared into the house for a minute. she came out with one of her blankets and quietly went over to "the forest". i just watched her, to see what she was doing. i love seeing what she'll do when she doesn't realize that anyone is looking....

lol...
and this is when i finally had to ask her what she was doing. "oh this is my hammock. my forest hammock for me to sit and think in."
and then it got even better. she is an explorer who is climbing to the top of the trees to see if there are any hyena's coming to the camp. yeah. she has been watching "the lion king" lately. can you tell?!? oh boy.
i know that i am constantly rolling my eyes at her and wondering where she and how she comes up with these things, but i would honestly much rather have her this way then completely boring and way too practical. hmmm and i wonder where she gets this weird and randomness from?!? lol...yeah. she's definitely her mothers daughter!
....and yes. below? i was freezing and she was loving the sun...lol!
love you kin! aka "oooog"
xoxo