Monday, February 28, 2011
It's That Time Again!!!!
Sunday, February 27, 2011
"Mom!? From Now On My Name Is Jimmer...."
when i played, there were always those superstars who were awesome on the court but complete dicks off the court. they were arrogant, disrespectful, cocky, rude, and expected everything to be theirs for the taking. they let the "fame" and the "greatness" take over.
well, jimmer fredette does not and not only does his team mates back this statement up but also the opposing teams that BYU has played say what a great person he is.
point is, i'm glad that he is one that my son adores and looks up to. he loves to watch him play and wants to be as talented. one of the days while he was playing he said "mom!? from now on, my name is jimmer. my middle name is james too (jimmer's first name is james) so i can change my name to jimmer." i smiled and said ok. we'll see how long this one lasts but if it pushes him to work hard and to never give up, then fine. jimmer's his name! ;)
ps. i LOVE this video and song together. it reminds me so much of my college practice and game warm up days ;)
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
It Was Inevitable...
for 11 yrs, i have been waiting for an event to happen. well today it finally did. and it brought me both relief, joy, pain, and wonder. wonder meaning the "what if" or sadly put, the "regret".
regret sucks. there's no doubt about it. and even though i know there's no going back, that time travel machine is going to come about. i just know it.
i'm not even saying that i'd go back and do things different and i know that hind site is 20/20 but i do wish that i could go back and have handled things different. or communicated different. or have acted different. or had mostly given an "i'm sorry".
i am afraid that now it's too late. i waited too long for this event to happen. i didn't quite know how to handle it. i knew that one day i would see them though i've made sure to hide in those random locations where you see the person you least expect or want to. let me rephrase that. i'd want to see them but i knew that it would be very awkward.
mostly it makes me sad that someone who was such a huge part of my youth is no longer even an acquaintance. i can only assume that the acknowledgment did not even occur because of how much pain or loathing there is. that is what breaks my heart especially when it comes to this person. plus i hate when there is "long term conflict". i want things settled and over. but i get it. i can't always "make" that happen even when i want it to.
and yes. selfishly i feel "jipped"! i made some decisions based on the most information that i had, come to find out that most of which was untrue. (note to self...communicate. don't be quick to assume. let go of the pride. leave it all "out on the table")
blah. i know. it's a venting post but i needed to write this down so that i could get it out of my head. i also made a new goal. my laptop is on my standing frame so that i am more committed to standing. the battery has been dead so my blog has been somewhat neglected. but mostly because i have an 8yr old "infant" by my side. she's been awesome and we've had so much fun but life has been very different. no more coming and going as i please. but like i said, it's been fun and it's been a huge learning experience.
ok. i am emotionally exhausted and need sleep. but i can't end without saying how great it was this morning to see, hug, kiss, chat again, and say goodbye to some of the most influential people that helped form who i am. that made my morning to know that they still love me and understand me. going down memory lane was fun too. i was surprised at all of the random memories that flashed into my head. things that i had forgotten and hidden in my mind. i had a good time telling kindra some of my "stories" and showing her where i once spent so much time. see? the morning was a mixture of many emotions....
and what am i getting at by talking about "this event"? don't wait until it's too late to give an "i'm sorry" or to say something that is needed. don't take your loved ones for granted. you never know what the future holds and you never know when the opportunity will be gone. that way you'll never have the "what if's" or the "regret" because you'll know that you did all that YOU possibly could.
but if and when you do have the "what if's" or the "regret"? learn. all you can do is LEARN and move on.
xxxx
regret sucks. there's no doubt about it. and even though i know there's no going back, that time travel machine is going to come about. i just know it.
i'm not even saying that i'd go back and do things different and i know that hind site is 20/20 but i do wish that i could go back and have handled things different. or communicated different. or have acted different. or had mostly given an "i'm sorry".
i am afraid that now it's too late. i waited too long for this event to happen. i didn't quite know how to handle it. i knew that one day i would see them though i've made sure to hide in those random locations where you see the person you least expect or want to. let me rephrase that. i'd want to see them but i knew that it would be very awkward.
mostly it makes me sad that someone who was such a huge part of my youth is no longer even an acquaintance. i can only assume that the acknowledgment did not even occur because of how much pain or loathing there is. that is what breaks my heart especially when it comes to this person. plus i hate when there is "long term conflict". i want things settled and over. but i get it. i can't always "make" that happen even when i want it to.
and yes. selfishly i feel "jipped"! i made some decisions based on the most information that i had, come to find out that most of which was untrue. (note to self...communicate. don't be quick to assume. let go of the pride. leave it all "out on the table")
blah. i know. it's a venting post but i needed to write this down so that i could get it out of my head. i also made a new goal. my laptop is on my standing frame so that i am more committed to standing. the battery has been dead so my blog has been somewhat neglected. but mostly because i have an 8yr old "infant" by my side. she's been awesome and we've had so much fun but life has been very different. no more coming and going as i please. but like i said, it's been fun and it's been a huge learning experience.
ok. i am emotionally exhausted and need sleep. but i can't end without saying how great it was this morning to see, hug, kiss, chat again, and say goodbye to some of the most influential people that helped form who i am. that made my morning to know that they still love me and understand me. going down memory lane was fun too. i was surprised at all of the random memories that flashed into my head. things that i had forgotten and hidden in my mind. i had a good time telling kindra some of my "stories" and showing her where i once spent so much time. see? the morning was a mixture of many emotions....
and what am i getting at by talking about "this event"? don't wait until it's too late to give an "i'm sorry" or to say something that is needed. don't take your loved ones for granted. you never know what the future holds and you never know when the opportunity will be gone. that way you'll never have the "what if's" or the "regret" because you'll know that you did all that YOU possibly could.
but if and when you do have the "what if's" or the "regret"? learn. all you can do is LEARN and move on.
xxxx
Monday, February 21, 2011
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
An Adventurous V-Day...
***the edited version***
i always knew that i was in love with trevor. he was different and he allowed me to be myself. he was happy when i was with him but he was trusting and "allowing" when it was girl time (though i have no idea why because that was when i was such a gamer. no stories since that would taint my good name but a gamer? yes oh yes.)
back in my shallow and materialistic days, that was what drew me to him. young man, great money, nice things, and he wined and dined me. he cared about those things and he cared about making me feel like i was living the type of life style that i had been use to. he was the image driven prince charming and exactly what i wanted.
fast forward to now. it's a whole other ball game and that's not in a bad way.
on saturday night, trevor had this romantic dinner date all planned. he'd researched somewhere new to eat since he knows how much i like to try new things and to branch out. (fyi. he would kill me if he knew i was telling this story but i just have to) so we dropped the kids off at his parents for the night and we headed out to a new thai restaurant. i was shocked that he was actually trying something new that he didn't KNOW FOR SURE was good. i was excited because sometimes the "hole in the wall" places are the best.
let me just tell you that this place was so not the case. we were all fancied up, camera in hand to snap a v-day picture to remember, and the camera did not even open once. i promised him that i wouldn't. he was so embarrassed. if you know him, this is not his type of thing. we sat down and he gave me one look before he said...
"let's leave. please can we go somewhere else!? this is embarrassing. happy valentines babe! it's like we're in a cafeteria!!!"
i was laughing so hard and quickly reminded him that i was with him for his lol looks and his lol love not for his money...snicker snicker! but really i was being serious. it's the thought that counts and the actions that speak louder than words. we laughed, we ate, and we hurried off to the movie making sure that it would NOT be a place that we would "try" again.
very long story short. i am so glad that he was willing to try to be adventurous. i am so blessed that he accepts my attitude and randomness for what it is. i am so fortunate to know that we will always keep our relationship strong. i can't wait for our trip to boston for the race. we are going to have a blast...A BLAST!
anyway, just had to share this and had to recognize the growth that we've both made. money is nothing. it helps but it is nothing. it's all about the attitude and the rest will fall into place. i truly believe that thru experience. we've been on both ends of the spectrum and nothing really changes. there's never enough and you always want more. so oh well. enjoy life. love life. love your family no matter what. do all that you can and your family will always remain your foundation.
again, happy valentines day and i hope that your's was as good as mine :)
i always knew that i was in love with trevor. he was different and he allowed me to be myself. he was happy when i was with him but he was trusting and "allowing" when it was girl time (though i have no idea why because that was when i was such a gamer. no stories since that would taint my good name but a gamer? yes oh yes.)
back in my shallow and materialistic days, that was what drew me to him. young man, great money, nice things, and he wined and dined me. he cared about those things and he cared about making me feel like i was living the type of life style that i had been use to. he was the image driven prince charming and exactly what i wanted.
fast forward to now. it's a whole other ball game and that's not in a bad way.
on saturday night, trevor had this romantic dinner date all planned. he'd researched somewhere new to eat since he knows how much i like to try new things and to branch out. (fyi. he would kill me if he knew i was telling this story but i just have to) so we dropped the kids off at his parents for the night and we headed out to a new thai restaurant. i was shocked that he was actually trying something new that he didn't KNOW FOR SURE was good. i was excited because sometimes the "hole in the wall" places are the best.
let me just tell you that this place was so not the case. we were all fancied up, camera in hand to snap a v-day picture to remember, and the camera did not even open once. i promised him that i wouldn't. he was so embarrassed. if you know him, this is not his type of thing. we sat down and he gave me one look before he said...
"let's leave. please can we go somewhere else!? this is embarrassing. happy valentines babe! it's like we're in a cafeteria!!!"
i was laughing so hard and quickly reminded him that i was with him for his lol looks and his lol love not for his money...snicker snicker! but really i was being serious. it's the thought that counts and the actions that speak louder than words. we laughed, we ate, and we hurried off to the movie making sure that it would NOT be a place that we would "try" again.
very long story short. i am so glad that he was willing to try to be adventurous. i am so blessed that he accepts my attitude and randomness for what it is. i am so fortunate to know that we will always keep our relationship strong. i can't wait for our trip to boston for the race. we are going to have a blast...A BLAST!
anyway, just had to share this and had to recognize the growth that we've both made. money is nothing. it helps but it is nothing. it's all about the attitude and the rest will fall into place. i truly believe that thru experience. we've been on both ends of the spectrum and nothing really changes. there's never enough and you always want more. so oh well. enjoy life. love life. love your family no matter what. do all that you can and your family will always remain your foundation.
again, happy valentines day and i hope that your's was as good as mine :)
Monday, February 14, 2011
Happy Valentines 2011....
Advice For The SAHM...
would you like to read about my friend christy? if i were you, i would!
she came up with this GREAT IDEA for a blog post for those who are or will be SAHM's.
and if you want to know what a SAHM is, then GO OVER HERE and READ all about it!
you won't regret it! i promise. (and i even helped to contribute a tiny bit!)
ps---HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!!!
she came up with this GREAT IDEA for a blog post for those who are or will be SAHM's.
and if you want to know what a SAHM is, then GO OVER HERE and READ all about it!
you won't regret it! i promise. (and i even helped to contribute a tiny bit!)
ps---HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!!!
Sunday, February 13, 2011
“Live life fully while you're here. Experience everything. Take care of yourself and your friends. Have fun, be crazy, be weird. Go out and screw up! You're going to anyway, so you might as well enjoy the process. Take the opportunity to learn from your mistakes: find the cause of your problem and eliminate it. Don't try to be perfect; just be an excellent example of being human.”
Saturday, February 12, 2011
The KNEES---
xoxoxoxoxo
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
I'm Honestly So Confused...?
do you ever feel like you are losing your mind? making up circumstances or phone conversations in your head? not able to recall what you did the day before?
yeah? well me too! seriously.
i swear that we have so much going on and i can't keep it straight! she needs this and he needs that. i called and settled this and you need to handle that. i have piles heaping everywhere in my house. notices. invites. homework. bills. statements. races. artwork. projects. the list goes on.
i told a friend the other day that i wish that everyone could leave for a week so i could get things organized again. it never stops!
today i got a phone call that a medical procedure that i had done in october was denied by my insurance.
"no. it's covered. i called before my appointment to get a prior auth and they told me it would be covered" i said.
i distinctly remember the phone call with ??? yeah. exactly. with who??? i swear inside and out, up and down that i remember the conversation that i had. i remember being relieved that it was going to be covered but who was it with? was it this company or this one?
i'm so confused and even now, as i am writing this post, i know DANG WELL that this phone call happened. i did not dream this or make this up! and yet i can't remember the proof! i'll find it but now i have to dig and that takes time. time that i don't have! blah....
on a happier note, the sky is blue and the sun is shining, half of the laundry loads are done, half of the rooms are clean, kindra happily did her reading, and i'm going to yoga tonight. it could be worse. much worse.
my mum came down today. i love when she does but i also hate it. she can read my face like no other and she knows when i'm stressed. i start venting to her and the words just keep coming. i find myself getting even more frustrated. i try to keep my business, my business and i don't want my family getting involved. it never helps.
"all i can tell you is to concentrate on the positive. focus on whats good and what makes you smile. i don't know what else to tell you except that", she said.
so here i stand. yes stand as i write in my standing frame. it feels so good! i can see the blue sky and the sun melting the snow...and it makes me smile.
standing and smiling. at least i know i can handle this!
standing and smiling. concentrating on the positive.
yeah? well me too! seriously.
i swear that we have so much going on and i can't keep it straight! she needs this and he needs that. i called and settled this and you need to handle that. i have piles heaping everywhere in my house. notices. invites. homework. bills. statements. races. artwork. projects. the list goes on.
i told a friend the other day that i wish that everyone could leave for a week so i could get things organized again. it never stops!
today i got a phone call that a medical procedure that i had done in october was denied by my insurance.
"no. it's covered. i called before my appointment to get a prior auth and they told me it would be covered" i said.
i distinctly remember the phone call with ??? yeah. exactly. with who??? i swear inside and out, up and down that i remember the conversation that i had. i remember being relieved that it was going to be covered but who was it with? was it this company or this one?
i'm so confused and even now, as i am writing this post, i know DANG WELL that this phone call happened. i did not dream this or make this up! and yet i can't remember the proof! i'll find it but now i have to dig and that takes time. time that i don't have! blah....
on a happier note, the sky is blue and the sun is shining, half of the laundry loads are done, half of the rooms are clean, kindra happily did her reading, and i'm going to yoga tonight. it could be worse. much worse.
my mum came down today. i love when she does but i also hate it. she can read my face like no other and she knows when i'm stressed. i start venting to her and the words just keep coming. i find myself getting even more frustrated. i try to keep my business, my business and i don't want my family getting involved. it never helps.
"all i can tell you is to concentrate on the positive. focus on whats good and what makes you smile. i don't know what else to tell you except that", she said.
so here i stand. yes stand as i write in my standing frame. it feels so good! i can see the blue sky and the sun melting the snow...and it makes me smile.
standing and smiling. at least i know i can handle this!
standing and smiling. concentrating on the positive.
Saturday, February 5, 2011
Friday, February 4, 2011
The Mormon Messages Contest ---
i am sure that most of you know that i am a "mormon" or "lds" and for those of you that don't know, i am. some may question my actions or think that i don't "act" like one but oh well. my spiritual beliefs are between 2 beings...me and the lord. i am also very lucky that i have great parents who taught me to accept all, no matter what that "all" meant. but that's not the topic for today :)
a few months ago, a good friend from college, asked me if i would do something for them. her husband wanted to enter a contest. he wanted to put together a video for the "mormon messages" and he asked me to share my story.
i forget that i have "a story" because i just do it. it's just who i am and it's my life. i forget that what i've overcome is a great story that motivates and inspires. i myself hear others "stories" and am brought to tears forgetting that i've got one that i could and should share too. plus, i hate feeling like the braggart!?
anyway, excitedly i said yes. remember my thinking...
"we go through things to either 1-learn something for ourselves or 2-for our actions to help teach someone something they need"
we did two videos. one with the religion aspect and one without. here is the one that was entered into the contest. and either way, spiritual or not, i think it is a good story. one of strength, endurance, having a positive attitude, and determination.
anyway, enjoy.....
a few months ago, a good friend from college, asked me if i would do something for them. her husband wanted to enter a contest. he wanted to put together a video for the "mormon messages" and he asked me to share my story.
i forget that i have "a story" because i just do it. it's just who i am and it's my life. i forget that what i've overcome is a great story that motivates and inspires. i myself hear others "stories" and am brought to tears forgetting that i've got one that i could and should share too. plus, i hate feeling like the braggart!?
anyway, excitedly i said yes. remember my thinking...
"we go through things to either 1-learn something for ourselves or 2-for our actions to help teach someone something they need"
we did two videos. one with the religion aspect and one without. here is the one that was entered into the contest. and either way, spiritual or not, i think it is a good story. one of strength, endurance, having a positive attitude, and determination.
anyway, enjoy.....
Thursday, February 3, 2011
"Pregnant and Paralyzed" Do California...
funny story. i noticed a man, a foreigner, watching intently at what was going on. after i finished and went over to retrieve my bag, in a very austrian like voice he jokingly grabbed his man boobs and said "well they didn't grab yours so now you know that you could hide some goodies up there!" um yeah. insert awkward laugh here. it was a perfect way to end the pat down ;)
so rewind, before they start taping, jay comes out and talks to the audience, taking questions. for some unknown reason, i was being timid, which i now regret and it wasn't until someone asked for a picture that i knew it was "allowed". then i tried to get his attention and i did but it was too late because it was time to start. he looked over but was hurried off to change. oh well. i didn't get a photo but i did get some words and a touch! lol...
mistie can be a very light sleeper. the slightest noise wakes her up. she even busted out the ear plugs! plus she is pregnant so being comfortable and in silence is a must for a goods night rest.
katie. is. a. snore'r. yep. there's no denying it. just call me the lumber-jack cause i can sure saw big logs. once upon a time i was referred over to some "breath rite nose strips" and they worked like a charm. let's just say that immediately after dinner we went and purchased some. i even made mistie try one on and she's hooked! lol

ahhhhh. best experience ever and a must to put on your "bucket list"! sooo happy that we did it! (though we did feel like we were also experiencing a "couples massage" and especially after we told them that we were in cali to go to an "ellen" taping. hahaha awesome)
yep. we're a couple...lol
loved the quaint little bed & breakfasts and san fran like streets...
for the total tour of the island we rented this golf cart to putt around complete with a wheelchair on the back! and a first for mistie...how to drive a golf cart :)




a 32 wk prego profile shot that was a must have...
a great sunrise on the ride back from long beach to burbank...
a lazy and early morning laying out, eating breakfast by the pool. wow. and to think that 24 hrs later we were back in the frozen tundra. waaah :(
coudn't pass up one of my favorites...
"the tonight show" only made us show up 30 minutes before the taping but "ellen" required us there close to 3.5 hrs before. barf. kt and patience are not very good friends. in fact, not. at. all.
sneaky sneaky shot #2 just to show that we were front and center. look at how close that we were!!!
and in case you missed the episode, here is my national television debut! hahaha after regretting not pulling out "my silver hidden balls out of my pocket" (thanks jaime for that classic quote) i was not going to let any oppurtunity pass itself up. and they told us to have fun and to be brave soooo that's what i did! lol! awesome and every time i watch it, i still end it with a giggle and a smirk on my face :)such a great trip and i'm so glad that i did this little adventure with mistie. she's one of my besties but i'd have to say that after this trip we're even closer. you're always worried to do these little excursions with friends before you know what kind of traveler they are and she had the same worries. but it's safe to say that she passed the test and so did i. phew. what a relief. and especially because she can handle my snoring, my bossiness, my "go with the flow" outlook, and my random desires of things to do!
until next time....
xoxo
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