“Live life fully while you're here. Experience everything. Take care of yourself and your friends. Have fun, be crazy, be weird. Go out and screw up! You're going to anyway, so you might as well enjoy the process. Take the opportunity to learn from your mistakes: find the cause of your problem and eliminate it. Don't try to be perfect; just be an excellent example of being human.”

The KNEES---

GOOD NEWS!!! our doctor, who is awesome, did some extra research and discovered that they would not need to cut any bone to repair the hips, ankles, knees not being aligned problem! this was the best news. the surgery time was not as long, the recovery time would not be as severe, and her pain would be pretty much none. all that they needed to do was to loosen and tighten some ligaments and tendons. then the knee cap would have a proper groove to stay in and not pop out. we hope this will be the last of the surgeries but only time will tell. this was caused because she was born with club feet because she was bascially squished in the womb because of my accident/sitting aspect. my little miracle! (and here is the story if you're new)

















***if it looks like i'm being a horrible parent, as i sit back snapping photos of her while she is utterly frustrated, ok. i felt horrible. buuut i had to. she needed some time on her own to learn for herself that she could and can do it. would it be easier if i just "carried" her around? yes. would it just hold her back and never allow her to learn? yes. so here i sat. my heart was in pain. but she learned. and now. she getting on and off things by herself WITHOUT the chair and army crawling it. yeah. she's a tough one and yes. very prideful...just like her mom***


after all of that blaugh surgery stuff, it was time for some FUN!...


aaaawwww kin. what would we do without you?!
xoxoxoxoxo

I'm Honestly So Confused...?

do you ever feel like you are losing your mind? making up circumstances or phone conversations in your head? not able to recall what you did the day before?

yeah? well me too! seriously.

i swear that we have so much going on and i can't keep it straight! she needs this and he needs that. i called and settled this and you need to handle that. i have piles heaping everywhere in my house. notices. invites. homework. bills. statements. races. artwork. projects. the list goes on.

i told a friend the other day that i wish that everyone could leave for a week so i could get things organized again. it never stops!

today i got a phone call that a medical procedure that i had done in october was denied by my insurance.

"no. it's covered. i called before my appointment to get a prior auth and they told me it would be covered" i said.

i distinctly remember the phone call with ??? yeah. exactly. with who??? i swear inside and out, up and down that i remember the conversation that i had. i remember being relieved that it was going to be covered but who was it with? was it this company or this one?

i'm so confused and even now, as i am writing this post, i know DANG WELL that this phone call happened. i did not dream this or make this up! and yet i can't remember the proof! i'll find it but now i have to dig and that takes time. time that i don't have! blah....

on a happier note, the sky is blue and the sun is shining, half of the laundry loads are done, half of the rooms are clean, kindra happily did her reading, and i'm going to yoga tonight. it could be worse. much worse.

my mum came down today. i love when she does but i also hate it. she can read my face like no other and she knows when i'm stressed. i start venting to her and the words just keep coming. i find myself getting even more frustrated. i try to keep my business, my business and i don't want my family getting involved. it never helps.

"all i can tell you is to concentrate on the positive. focus on whats good and what makes you smile. i don't know what else to tell you except that", she said.

so here i stand. yes stand as i write in my standing frame. it feels so good! i can see the blue sky and the sun melting the snow...and it makes me smile.

standing and smiling. at least i know i can handle this!

standing and smiling. concentrating on the positive.

Sometimes to get where you need to be you must go back to the beginning and start over, retracing the trail of bread crumbs until you arrive back at who you really are . . . and who you were meant to be all along.

The Mormon Messages Contest ---

i am sure that most of you know that i am a "mormon" or "lds" and for those of you that don't know, i am. some may question my actions or think that i don't "act" like one but oh well. my spiritual beliefs are between 2 beings...me and the lord. i am also very lucky that i have great parents who taught me to accept all, no matter what that "all" meant. but that's not the topic for today :)

a few months ago, a good friend from college, asked me if i would do something for them. her husband wanted to enter a contest. he wanted to put together a video for the "mormon messages" and he asked me to share my story.

i forget that i have "a story" because i just do it. it's just who i am and it's my life. i forget that what i've overcome is a great story that motivates and inspires. i myself hear others "stories" and am brought to tears forgetting that i've got one that i could and should share too. plus, i hate feeling like the braggart!?

anyway, excitedly i said yes. remember my thinking...

"we go through things to either 1-learn something for ourselves or 2-for our actions to help teach someone something they need"

we did two videos. one with the religion aspect and one without. here is the one that was entered into the contest. and either way, spiritual or not, i think it is a good story. one of strength, endurance, having a positive attitude, and determination.

anyway, enjoy.....

almost but...

nope. not yet. in case you were wondering kindra and i are still alive and sane.....
;)