Rock That Body

so. i LOVE this song. right now, this song depicts exactly how i feel about my body.

i have been freaking out about my weight. i have not been very happy at all about it. i have been busting my butt to get back down to my desired weight. well i just found out yesterday that it has paid off. i am only 10lbs away from my goal!!! you have no idea how happy this makes me. i can not even express in words...

while doing sit ups this morning, i was thinking about how much the numbers play on our self esteem and our self image. has anything changed? i mean, am i probably the only one who notices the difference? yes. yes. yes. but now that i know i weigh X amount, i feel like life is great. i feel attractive again. i feel that sassy-ness trait back again.!

when i found out that i actually weighed THIS amount, i died inside. all of a sudden i was THAT. i felt like crap. i was all depresso and miserable just because of THAT number. i will admit that my head can be a mess when it comes to how much i weigh. don't forget that when i graduated from high school, i weighed a mere 95 lbs. so yeah. that is what i think "normal" or "healthy" is.

it's sad how a number can have that much affect on your self esteem. that a number can make you feel so sad inside. it's just so blah!

anyway, like i said. just a thought.

can i say it one more time??? i weigh almost THAT again!!! woot...woot!!!

it's all mental...it's all mental...it's all mental

:)