An Apology

Yesterday was a long and hectic work day. Not only am I working hard to maintain my current obligations and take care of current clients but I am also exploring new career possibilities...yuk I know!?!

I came home exhausted but what do ya do? Just come home to my next job...motherhood! The kids are at that age of teasing, laughing, conniving, yelling, crying, getting hurt, etc, etc and I love it! We make it work and we have a routine. The warm weather definitely helps and they go to bed exhausted and they go to sleep fast! It's still hard as *!#& but ........

I was on the phone when the kids jumped in and they were all ready hyper but I have taught myself to tone it out. :( I know...such a bad parent move but at times I have to otherwise I would choke myself! Anyway, I was on the phone catching up with a friend, who was also giving me the best news ever but that's another story for another time :) but I found myself complaining about the job that I have as a parent! It was like it was the "cool" thing to say. I had to stop myself, jump off the band wagon, and re-state my thoughts.

Later on, as I was talking to another friend, we were laughing at the things that I was having to discipline my kids about. She just laughed at me! Her daughter is still at the nice and polite stage so I always feel bad when I let her "into my world"!

The point of all this is to give my friends an apology for the sarcastic and negative things that I said last night about my kids and my "job". No matter how hard or easy, it is an awesome job that I can not imagine ever living without! Like I said earlier...we make it work and we live on a roller coaster. A uncontrollable roller coaster but a fun one! Even though I was tired, frustrated, and overwhelmed last night, I still can look back on some of their funny comments and actions and just smile and realize just how lucky I am!